At 39, I was ready for my 2nd baby. I was healthy with regular cycles, ovulating, the whole bit. My functional medicine doctor and reproductive acupuncturist thought I’d have no problem. Neither did I.

Two years, two losses, three acupuncturists and five fertility specialists later, I became hopeless and desperate. I’d read every book and listened to every podcast on fertility.  The only thing that mattered in my life was getting pregnant. My relationship was strained, sex became a chore, and even when I was supposed to be having fun and enjoying the child I did have, I was grieving.

Through the same process I now use with my clients, I discovered that I had big blocks to getting pregnant. I was so consumed with information from every specialist I had seen that I’d lost connection with my own inner knowing. I had birth trauma, grief from my losses, and relationship patterns of being the one to do it all that left me questioning deep down, how I could have a career and mother two children.

Each session with my coach, I felt lighter. I began trusting in myself and my bodies’ wisdom again. I let go of the urgency to get pregnant, and instead opened myself to possibility. Three months later in between IUI cycles, during one that my reproductive endocronologist said I couldn’t conceive, I tested positive.